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really wish i had found this vid on easter just to celebrate with it but just throwing it out here lol

absolutely glorious I'm telling ya

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corpus christi: a play by terrence mcnally

jesus christ superstar is about a time loop and the only production i’ve seen to touch on this is the 1973 film

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here's to posting more regularly happy new year 🎉

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just dippin in for sum stuff but uh

yesterday was easter and at first I wanna rewatch jcs just cuz

but I basically rotted my brain listening and relistening to it so much I bored myself out

so I just looked around for other jesus/judas related stuff to consume

and i

uh

came across this book called "Iscariot: A Novel of Judas" by Tosca Lee

and

uh

(excuse the weird formatting I converted it to pdf)

HOW AM I MEANT TO BE FINE WITH THIS ADIHJIDJDJIEBFJ I AM NOT OK-

anyways if you want more judas-centric content go read it I think it's good :3

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if yall r wondering what shit I've been on for the past few days, it's this

idk what drugs I've been on but this is what I'm doing with my life and neglecting everything else :)))

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3am thoughts

but

uhm... jesus n judas... food as a common love language but judas got stomach problems

sth sth judas's grief at not being able to stomach the food jesus gives him while being very aware of it. judas's hatred of his body for doing this to him, of god for giving him such a cursed existence. why can't he just eat like a normal person why

sth sth jesus being supportive of him and tryna find other ways they can bond. cursing his Father in heaven why He made the one he loves have to suffer like this he is only human why why why. he is crying and judas is crying and they are both frustrated and tired and don't know what to do.

sth sth they can never get as close as they wish they were, there are other gestures of love but no other that they have in common. yearning to be in the state where there are parts of them in the other's body, the blood wine and meat bread goes untouched as they curled into each other, skin touching skin but never deeper. maybe if they close their eyes they would melt into one another sharing their bones and flesh and blood inseparable.

sometimes jesus wants to tear judas apart just to be able to reach his bowels and maybe fix him from inside and judas wants to tear himself apart just to be able to consume and keep some part of jesus when he is inevitably closed back up. and then they reel back from shame and never discuss their thoughts to each other because judas already made clear that he doesn't wanna be fixed (it's a long time ago he is waiting for jesus to ask him again) and judas is terrible at trying to reach out and ask for help (from shame from doubtfulness from whatever's going on inside his head)

sometimes they wonder why they're still together

and judas still can't eat

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just finished watching across the spiderverse at theatre

so good I can't think straight

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i feel bad for the people that follow me cuz the likelihood of me returning after a period of break and still be in the same fandom at the time I left is almost 0%

anyways I finally watch star wars

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y'all wanna hear sum wacky thoughts/ideas I got for like

jcs/jc & the apostles in general?

just askin cuz m bored lol

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it's been 4 months and I wanna change my url now 🧍

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it's my 2 year anniversary on tumblr

cheers ig

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if you don't see me being active there's a chance that

a) I got dragged screaming and crying into a new fixation and am too embarrassed to say anything about it (this is true, I finished watching moon knight a few days ago, 1 year after its release and now I need more)

or

b) I'm too busy and tired to do anything (also true, life is whooping my ass rn)

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9 people you would like to get to know better

thanks for tagging me @hobgoblinns ^^

three ships: jesus x judas (obviously), steddyhands and uhhhhh oc x canon cuz that shit got me into fandom in the first place :3

first ever ship: pretty sure it was sakura x syaoran mlem

last song listened to: Lower One's Eyes by Lanndo / ぬゆり but specifically the Will Stetson English Cover cuz that shit catchy af

last movie watched: I haven't watched any lately but the closest thing would be jcs 2012 uk arena tour :)?

currently reading: shamefully I still haven't regained my ability to enjoy a regular published book so it's all fanfics babeeee ಥ⁠‿⁠ಥ

currently watching: already finished the chosen but I'll probably rewatch it + watch the specials

currently consuming: just, any bible content that isn't the actual bible lmao-

currently craving: motivation + idea to finish the art projects I got going on :')

gonna have to leave this open for anyone interested cuz I legit don't know anyone that's active on here :')))

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finally gotten a haircut today and

i still look worse than pre-haircut lmao

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markiplier gotta release new lore soon, the study doesn't have anything else to latch onto and is just talking bout his boobas at this point

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this is liek

the cutest I've ever looked lmaoo